He left.
He has packed his belongings and left. It is not as simple as this but the ending is this simple.
He hugged me.
He said he was sorry for hurting me.
BUT he can't live like this any more.
And he is gone.
I am wandering around the space left, a little lost.
I will survive this as I have already survived much losing.
I WILL be okay.
I WILL myself to get through the rest of today, and face the rest of my days without him.
I will clean.(when I stop bouncing off walls). I will be okay.
But for now I hurt.
a lot.
So, I guess he didn't love me after all.
At least not as I understand love.
Weekend
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Went up to the bay for the weekend - the oil slick hadn't hit Tin Can yet.
That is the view from the deck of Mum's beach house - naturally, whenever I
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1 year ago
Oh, Maggie, I am so SO terribly sorry. I know you'll be OK, because you're a strong person, but that doesn't mean it hurts any less. Wish there was something I could do. Giant comforting hugs to you, my friend.
ReplyDeleteMaggs,
ReplyDeleteI am SO SO sorry to hear this . . .
I wish I knew what to say, the right words, but I am at a loss. :(
Praying for you & sending you GREAT BIG HUGS!
Wish I could offer you more right now.
XOXOX
I will be okay.
ReplyDeleteIf I say it often enough, I will believe it and model it.
I will get through today, and the pain.
The first night waits for me.
I will walk until the pain outside balances what is happening inside. I have cleaned the house. I will organise and clean out all the cupboards and keep myself busy and as the days layer one upon the otehr, and the nights I will feel better. it just takes a little time.
I am okay.
I'm so sorry Maggie! It must be a terrible shock, even though you suspected something was up. I know this will mean nothing right now, but someone said it to me in 2004, and years later it was proven true:
ReplyDeleteHe was not meant to be The One. If he hadn't left now, you might have missed the Right One because the wrong one would have blocked the path to your heart.
Anyway, I am sending you lots of love, and hope for a happier, more fulfilling future. And I am so sorry you're hurting. *hugs*
Thanks Kate. I am in one breath at a time mode. I will get through this.
ReplyDeleteYou will get through it, Maggs. You will. Taking things a moment at a time is all you can do sometimes, and it can be the best thing to do too. I've been thinking of you all evening and saying many prayers on your behalf. Are you going to be able to get by financially? I am so sorry for the hurt you are experiencing right now. :(
ReplyDelete*Big Hugs*
quote: ".....you might have missed the Right One because the wrong one would have blocked the path to your heart."
ReplyDeleteoh, I like that and should take it to heart myself.
Were there enough "warning signs" to prepare you? I wish I lived closer so we could have some good girl talk. I know you need it....
{{{hugs}}}
I have run the numbers and finances will be a little tight for a while but i will find a way through this. I will. Thanks Charmie and Dorrie. I am counting my many blessings and just taking this in really small life chunks.
ReplyDeleteStill thinking about you, and have been all night. Wish I knew the right words to say. I hope you are able to get some sleep, and that you have friends there who can help you through this. Once again, I wish we lived closer, so we could get together. I'd lend you my shoulder to lean on (my good one) lol. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, my friend.
ReplyDeleteI know we have talked about this already, but I just want you to know that I'm here. I don't have any words of wisdom, but I'm here anytime.
ReplyDeleteI hope you've been able to get some rest.
Love you *hugs*
I'm so so sorry. I wish I was closer and could help. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDelete{{{{hugs}}}} and love~ Gina